Some people deserve what they got

Hello

I want to write about lies and liars because in the last time I had a revelation of a series of lies which outraged me and even though this didn't leave any harms in my life I just can't let unexpressed my impressions regarding this.

The biggest disappointment can be caused by people from who we expect the least the inappropriate comportment or attitude. I should have had the intuition that there is something wrong with somebody who is considered a person with the best intentions and sentiments by everybody around him. That is quite unreal nowadays. After I found out some events from his life which I considered very tough and I would never forgive or pass over what another person did to him, but he did and reacted very good, I started to get convinced that actually he is really a good person.

I don't want to overcharge this post with more details, so you will have to believe me that he played very authentically the role of a good, caring, patient and kind man. However this theater didn't last long and after a few suspect signs I wanted explanations and asked for concrete decisions. This was my test and he totally failed it. I knew that if he was honest than I will get some logic explanation and things will get better, but if my suspicions were right than he will give me some vague answer and leave. The disappointment started from here as he wasn't able even to invent something and got very confused with my demand. All my interest was gone, and later on he lost any respect and consideration I had for him.

The only thing what I would appreciate in him now is the acting talent, because he was able to create and maintain the image of a quiet, nice and good person, when actually he has no character, principles and courage to assume his faults and wishes. I didn't realize why he avoided me even when we were obliged to stay nearby each other as I never wished to speak with him anymore and I didn't really had resentments for him. Just a few days ago I found out the truth and understood how coward he is and what a weak personality with lack of honesty he has. In that moment my rage was awakened as I never deserved to be lied by a person who got the worst from another woman. He deserved all what he got and what he will get from the same person in the future.

Keep smiling and love life

        I have just seen a very nice blog for decorations where I saw this title and gave me the idea for this post. It passed in my mind immediately that we don't know to love and appreciate life. With the problems and the routine of every day we miss many many sources of beauty, joy and happiness.

       We are overwhelmed by negative thoughts and the hunt after money, and we don't notice the good things life is offering us: the sunshine, the beauty of nature, the sun rise/set, a child's smile, the view of a colorful park, a funny picture or event,etc.

      Does it seem better now? After seeing these pictures I realized that it would be even better to see this kind of things in 'original', and we don't have to search too much. It is necessary to find a corner of nature or observe more the people who are passing near us and we will be amazed how many beautiful things we can discover. They are near us, just that we don't give them attention . Our problems, every day cares are taking all our energy and vitality, until we will arrive frustrated, who know just to complain and transmit negative attitude toward everything.
      This mentality is totally wrong and it is the generator of many many problems from depression to serious illnesses. Positive mentality is a therapy in itself, and combined with the appreciation of every good thing in life, it can make miracles. In place of staying in front of the TV, being frustrated and thinking how miserable is life, a walk in the fresh air, in the sunshine, enjoying the scents of nature will change the disposition.
SO LET'S TAKE THE WALKING SHOES AND START TO ENJOY NATURE AND LIFE!!!
      

Turn a page of life

Why blogging?

       There are moments in life when reasons, goals and expectations are destroyed, annihilated by our own faults, fears and frustrations. One could accept and get conformed with this situation as there are so many examples of such behavior around us, but it is not my case. It can't be as it would mean for me to comply with monotony, melancholy or maybe depression, and that is not me. I could be some years ago, when my personality was still vulnerable and needed always a support to not fade, but today I rely on myself and on the power to do something for the others, to try to be an example who admits her faults and weaknesses, but has always the strength to move on and can get up always after a fall. 

       Last year had many changes in my life, I had to experience many states and feelings which led to a point where I realized that I must stop and make an evaluation. I felt that everything what once defined me is lost, all the plans, hopes and expectations betrayed me. But I didn't lose my dreams and the energy to restart, the desire to want more. "So nothing is lost!" I said to myself, at least not something what I can't retrieve or rebuild. These 26 years I lived weren't boring or easy, I've had experienced good and bad, happiness and sadness, love and loss, success and failure, desire and rejection, and I could continue with an endless line, so I realized that I want to share many thoughts, wishes, experiences and struggles, but especially I want to save them. My personality and every feature of my character is the result of the experiences I had, of the events occurred in my life, of the relations I had with each person I entered in contact, all the feelings I have ever felt, the attitude I had toward all problems and issues and so on. I have apparently a series of things without end again, which makes me even more eager to speak, and in the same way to explore more deeply their senses and values in life.

        The desire to discover the world, but especially myself is the driver of this blog. I don't want to waste nothing more which could bring me closer to the world and which could drop me in the mysteries of my dreams, desires, feelings and passions. Life is like a running river, its flow will never go back just forward, but it depends just on us what we take with the flow, what we leave behind and how pure or how chaotic is this stream. How we live our life depends just on us, and LIFE IS WORTHY TO LIVE ON ITS HIGHEST INTENSITY. This is what I want to share with you in my blog.